I should like getting ahead
- Cue The Pulse To Begin/ Burnside Project

[insert ambiguous depressive text with lyrics and quotes and bitter feelings]

emo emo emo

/emo /emo /emo

This is an obligatory emo post set to freak a certain person out. Hahaha. I would explain but I’m sleepy (:

Year three is ending with some pretty epic stuff. I think I’ve changed a lot. I’m still socially inept and it feels like I’m on a different channel than most people on good days… but I’m trying to view it this way: I entered lost and confused, angry and depressed. But I’m leaving with the ability to keep my emotions in check (sorta) and with a rough outline of what I’m planning to do. I’m thinking of sticking it out in this industry because I’ve come to love the technical aspects of it all. Aiming for the post-production line of work and if all pans out, maybe I could even start my own thing? Who knows?All these talks with all those industry people have been psyching me up for a crazyhardtoughfun time. I’m starting to think it’s worth it (:

As much as I hate going to school, it’s kinda taught me how to survive? Like. Not only through the terrors of internship but holy hell, the drama in school is just a reflection of what’s gonna happen out there. So, I’m leaving Ngee Ann with no regrets. I’ve lost friends but gained some epic relationships with people that I hope I won’t ever lose contact with <3

Woah. I don’t know how this post got all serious. Haha. Like I said, I’m sleepy. The link between my mind and my fingertips seems to slightly off. I think I should go. Night you all (:



And I, just need some time off
I need some time off from all of this, yeah
- The King/ Piebald

Bored to death at the loft. I should get started on the pile of homework I’ve accumulated, no? According to my checklist, I’ve got:

*REGCIN thesis paper
*REGCIN final quiz
*REGCIN final exam
*REGCIN blog
*REGCIN disc board: thailand
*REGCIN disc board: vietnam
*REGCIN disc board: singapore
*REGCIN disc board: malaysia
*REGCIN disc board: philippines

*POSTPRO blue nose online
*POSTPRO tv trailer

*AFP edit AFP2
*STUDIO studio paper

*MEDLAW test

*WISP assignment 3
*CORCOM group project

…to complete. Hoo. Rah.

9 days to muse
3 weeks-1 day to the end of school.

Well. Sorta. Still gotta come back to school after a “two week study break” for media law and regional cinema exams.

Bummer.



Its the sound of your racing heart
That beats in time with every start
That reaches up and across the sky
That makes you want to rise.
- Wind Up/ Thursday

Sometimes, it bothers me that I generally do not care about what others think. Because I know what people are saying and I guess I should feel annoyed, offended and even pissed off but it just kinda escapes me. I tend to view it this way– I have so many issues with myself, so why bother adding more negativity to the fuckload of emo I carry?

It’s easy to feel alienated in a crowd. I’d think it’d suck big time cept for the fact that I know there are people I can turn to and I’m forever grateful for that <3

This AFP2 schtick (that’s advanced film production class project two) has got it’s ups and downs. I’ve been feeling like I’m not part of the group because I know fuck nothing of what happened on set for the first two days. It was bloody exhausting driving around– picking up food, buying misc crap, ferrying the talent around… but my group seemed to view it as me skiving off duty. Like wtf? (But I’m gonna be editing our short film so that’s me contributing to the group if they still feel like I’ve done nothing)

Then, I remind myself that this is just school and really, I should just ignore all that melodramatic nonsense. It’s pretty juvenile. (That and I actually love driving.)

On the topic of AFP2 and driving, there’s a plus side to all that since I now have an unofficial roadtrip friend. Hahaha. He knows who he is and I think it’s been totally wickedawesome since we haven’t hung out in a long time. Even watched The Blind Side with him yesterday instead of with a different group of friends because everything is just so chill and trippy, you know? There’s none of that girl politics or uncomfortable silences. That and night drives = win.

3 more weeks to the end of school. Hell to the bleeding yeah.



Oh no, my feelings are more important than yours
Oh, drop dead, I don’t care, I won’t worry
There you go.
- Razorblade/ The Strokes

I wonder who we are when we’re not pretending.

I don’t quite know how to say how I feel.

You got to take me out/At least once a week/ Whether I’m in your arms/ Or I’m at your feet/ I know exactly what you’re thinking/ You won’t say it now/ But in your heart it’s loud.

T- ? hours to death silence.



The longest kiss
Peeling furniture days
Drift madly to you
Pollute my heart; Drain.

You have broken at me
Broken me.

All your mental armor drags me down
Nothing hurts like your mouth
- Mouth/ Bush

Hello there. It’s been a while.

Decided to give a proper update because I have messed up thoughts in my head and I need to sort them out a bit. And what better song to set mood to words then this. It confused the fuck out me the first time I heard it because I couldn’t tell if it was a sexual song or a song about being used and abused. I guess it’s a bit of both.

Like I said, my mind’s not in a good place right now- it’s been overrun with so many thoughts about school that I haven’t had time to sort other stuff out. I feel like my feelings are being pulled in a million directions and exhaustion is wearing me thin. I hate the late nights and unfinished sentences that hang in mid-air, stalling, pausing, waiting for when I wake to hit me like a freight train straight through the heart.

Love me. Leave me. Love you. Leave you. This is a one hit wonder waiting for you to hit replay. We’re running on borrowed time and it’s a 100 mile run to the light at the exit. Two steps forward (you), I step back (me).

Good night.

We’ve been missing long before
Never found our way home.

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the NEED list (2010)

All Flash #1// Arkham Asylum TPB/HC// Holy Terror, Batman! TPB/HC// Manhunter Volumes 1, 2, 3, 4, 5// Marvels TPB/HC// Maus TPB/HC// Preacher TPB/HC// Sandman HC: one, two, three, four// The Dark Knight Returns TPB/HC// The Runaways Volumes 1,2,3// The Runaways: Dead End Kids Premiere HC// The System TPB/HC// The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys TPB// The Umbrella Academy: Hotel Oblivion HC// The Young Avengers Volumes 1, 2, 3// Dark Reign Young Avengers TPB// Understanding Comics TPB/HC// One Bullet Away: The Making of a Marine Officer- Nathaniel C. Fick// Hero- Perry Moore// I, Lucifer- Glen Duncan// The Outsiders- S. E. Hinton// Good Omens- Neil Gaiman/Terry Pratchett// Hogfather- Terry Pratchett// Reaper Man- Terry Pratchett// Small Gods- Terry Pratchett// The Colour Of Magic- Terry Pratchett// Fucked Up & Photocopied: Instant Art of the Punk Rock Movement- Bryan Ray Turcotte/Christopher T. Miller// Punk Is Dead Punk Is Everything- Bryan Ray Turcotte/Doug Woods// Modern Dog: 20 Years of Poster Art- Michael Strassburger/Robynne Raye//

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BOWLING FOR SOUP- Sorry For Partyin'// BOYS LIKE GIRLS- Love Drunk// BRAND NEW- Daisy// BREAKING BENJAMIN- Saturate // ELLIOT MINOR- Solaris// FOREVER THE SICKEST KIDS- Underdog Alma Mater// FROM FIRST TO LAST- Heroine// FROM FIRST TO LAST- From First To Last// HELLOGOODBYE- Zombies! Aliens! Vampires! Dinosaurs!// JACK'S MANNEQUIN- Everything In Transit// JACK'S MANNEQUIN- The Glass Passenger// MAYDAY PARADE- A Lesson In Romantics// MAYDAY PARADE- Anywhere But Here// MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK- I Am The Movie// MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK- Commit This To Memory// MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK- Even If It Kills Me// MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE- "Untitled 4th Album"// PHANTOM PLANET- The Guest// PHANTOM PLANET- Phantom Planet// PHANTOM PLANET- Raise The Dead// SOCRATIC- Lunch For The Sky// SOCRATIC- Spread The Rumors// STORY OF THE YEAR- The Black Swan// STORY OF THE YEAR- "Untitled 4th Album"// THE AFTERS- I Wish We All Could Win// THE AFTERS- Never Going Back To OK// THE DRESDEN DOLLS- The Dresden Dolls// THE DRESDEN DOLLS- Yes, Virginia...// THE DRESDEN DOLLS- A Is For Accident// THE DRESDEN DOLLS- No, Virginia...// THE FRATELLIS- Costello Music// THE JULIANA THEORY- Deadbeat Sweetheart// THE PIGEON DETECTIVES- Wait For Me// THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS- Lonely Road// THE SPILL CANVAS- Go For The Jugular// THE SPILL CANVAS- Sunsets And Car Crashes// THE SPILL CANVAS- One Fell Swoop// THE SPILL CANVAS- No Really, I'm Fine// THE STARTING LINE- Say It Like You Mean It// THE STARTING LINE- Based On A True Story// THE STARTING LINE- Direction// THE STROKES- "Untitled 4th Album" // THIS PROVIDENCE- Who Are You Now// THRICE- Identity Crisis// THRICE- The Illusion Of Safety//

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(500) Days Of Summer (dvd)// Avatar (dvd)// Cashback (dvd)// Inglourious Basterds (dvd)// Night At The Museum II // Princess Bride (dvd)// Rock' N' Rolla (dvd)// Role Models (dvd)// Pineapple Express (dvd)// Shaun of the Dead (dvd)// Star Trek (dvd)// The Blind Side (dvd)// The Bourne Identity (dvd)// The Bourne Supremacy (dvd)// The Bourne Ultimatum (dvd)// The Chronicles Of Narnia: Prince Caspian [3- disc edition] (dvd)// The Dark Knight (dvd)// The Hangover (dvd)// The Informant (dvd)// The Outsiders (dvd)// The Proposal (dvd)// The September Issue (dvd) // Transformers: Revenge Of The Fallen (dvd)// Tropic Thunder (dvd)// Wanted (dvd)// Watchmen (dvd)// Zombieland (dvd)// Breaking Bad S1 S2 (dvd)// Castle S1 S2 (dvd)// Dexter S1 S2 S3 S4 (dvd)// Doctor Who S2 S4 (dvd)// Firefly S1 (dvd)// Kings S1 (dvd)// Merlin S2 (dvd)// Supernatural S4 (dvd)//

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the MAYBE list (2009)

Flash, Vol. 0: Wonderland // Flash, Book 1: Blood Will Run // Y: The Last Man Volumes 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10//

CINEMA:2009/2010

WATCHED

Twilight

He's Just Not That Into You

Watchmen

Star Trek

Wolverine: Origins

Night At The Museum II

Ghosts Of Girlfriends Past

Monsters vs Aliens (3D)

Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen

Duplicity

The Hangover

The Proposal

Fame

The Ugly Truth

Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs (3D)

Inglourious Basterds

The September Issue

(500) Days Of Summer

Avatar (3D)

The Twilight Saga New Moon

Zombieland

The Blind Side

New York, I Love You

TO WATCH

Percy Jackson And The Lightning Thief

The Lovely Bones

Alice In Wonderland (3D)

Toy Story 3 (3D)