Ever heard all those risible phrases such as:
you are what you eat
you are what you wear
you are…blablablah

?

Well. I’m not certain if there is such a phrase (and I’m feeling rather sluggish and thus will not google it) but here’s the phrase that I feel is applicable to me at the current moment:

you are what your room is

I know, it’s quite awkward when you read it but I don’t give a damn to correct it right now.

Anyway, back to the point.

My room is in a perpetual state of disarray!

My desk is cluttered with stacks of papers of which half of them are utter rubbish but I haven’t had the time or heart to get rid of the junk. My once orderly drawer is now a jumble yard and is a sight for sore eyes.

My bag cupboard and “armoire” are , to put it nicely, rather disordered.

In all, welcome to the man-made disaster area.

And that’s how my thoughts are lately.

Chaotic.

I can’t seem to straighten the thoughts in my head because I don’t even know what I’m thinking about half the time.
My speech is affected terribly as I’m stuttering frequently these days.
It’s depressing.
I can’t even solve simple mathematical equations and I’m plagued with frustration when I spot something out of order.

Which basically means that my head is throbbing in pain everytime I take a glance around my room.

I’m a perturbed, distressed, fretful, miserable person.

And dammit! I know they have similar meanings.
I’m just trying to highlight my discontentment.

AND DOUBLE DAMNATION!

Why is The Boy Who Died acting as the vampire after my own heart?
I’d much rather have Young Hannibal Lecter play the charming enigma from the series that has enraptured millions. I feel the latter befits the role due to his pale(r) complexion and expressive eyes (oh! stop gagging and being so puerile!) and is quite a solid actor as compared to the former who has yet to impress me in any way.

The chosen one: (how ominous)

The much preferred choice:

(pictures are not mine.all nabbed when I googled for them earlier in the day)

I’m not saying that Pattison hasn’t sparked my interest in any sense…oh wait.
I am saying that.
I just preferred the fangirly speculation that Ulliel would be the cullen boy.
JUST LOOK:

He hurts my heart so!

I’m still going to watch the film movie when it’s released.
To see if it’s going to be a mockfest or if it managed to do the book justice.

It just really sucks when you can’t get what you want in life.

As a parting note:

I know that this post has been rather ostentatious.
I’m in a rather pretentious mood.

And hey! I hope that there’s a word or two that you just picked up.

I shall now bid thee adieu for I will be swamped later in the day with some personal dilemma followed by a reluctant viewing of a film movie with Eutamias which I’m only watching to appease my sister and because I adore two (the S.H.I.T head & the Criminal Minds druggie) of the voice-over “artists” while the third one is a rather surprising pick! ‘Sides, the karma guy is the lead for one of my favourite television series!

Regarding the absence from IM? It’s not that I can’t log in. It’s that I don’t want to. It’s some cleansing shit phase that I’m being forced to do. Cut off contact with certain people. Hence me being M.I.A. of course, I still sneak in a minute of two ;D